My first posting...

This is my first posting, my introduction... In a year's time, I will be a half-a-decade woman who is still searching for the bigger purpose in this life... I am a wife of a fantastic husband, a mother of 4 wonderful children, an unwilling eldest of 6 siblings, a daughter of ageing parents and a servant of Allah... 

I feel that my life is at a crossroad now and that I want to record my journey to the next decade starting from now... I don't know what Allah has planned for me and I keep praying that I get the answers soon. Oh, I won't rush Allah to fulfil my wishes and doas as I know it is all in His good hands. I do believe that He wants me to be closer to him, and thus the feelings of wanting to know Him, wanting to feel His love and blessings, keep me awake in the middle of the night. I would then spend sometimes thanking Him, wishing for Him to bless me, my doas and my family... I would then wake up again at around 5am to perform what I feel necessary to keep Him closer in my heart... Alhamdulillah I have managed to do this for the past year and a half.. May Allah guide me towards the straight path and eventually Jannatul Firdaus.. aminnnn...